Lost for words

My title doesn’t seem to add up to the sheer length of what follows! The other day, when I began to write this, I knew I had something to write. But I couldn’t find words to express it. Somehow the following just seemed to happen, with all credit to Jesus! I hope you enjoy it.

Do you ponder, like me, whether you comprehend even the slightest of the depths of Jesus upon the cross? I feel quite overwhelmed as I walk with Him. As He peels back layers from my eyes, and blesses me with truth.  We are only simple beings, after all. Yet He is so gracious, so incredibly loving…as His beloved we are purely loved, wonderfully and deeply. We have been bought into a place where nothing can be earned, but is only freely received.

“justified by His grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus” Romans 3:24

We are completely free now. For by His blood He purchased our freedom. We are set free to enter into His rest. This is the rest of Jesus overcoming, the victory over death on the cross. If we choose, life can be wholly founded on Him alone.

“Therefore, while the promise of entering His rest still stands, let us fear lest any of you should seem to have failed to reach it…for we who have believed enter that rest” Hebrews 4:1-3

Could these holy words ever get old? In the provision of Jesus’ sacrifice, our works cease. This is not to say we do not live and move for Christ, but, that these actions are no longer deemed as ‘work’. All the work that could ever be done for all mankind is found in Jesus Christ. When He died He said, ‘It is finished’. Therefore, our lives pour out of His side. They are not founded on anything we can do. But, upon humble reliance on Him who is able. I find that living and active faith in Him naturally produces such works of love.

He plants within me His desires, and all I can do is reply ‘yes!’ I believe it all comes from a place of consuming love. We become love slaves, energised by His Holy Spirit, so excited to see His Kingdom invade the darkness. We live lives of zeal.

“But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the greatness of the power would be from God and not from us” 2 Corinthians 4:7

This is not because we are striving to be accepted, to be ‘good’ or anything like that. For, our God’s word tells us that He is the source of all righteousness and strength. Our works, without Jesus, will always be imperfect. Love cannot be bought, righteousness cannot be bought. It is offensive to Jesus to suggest that anything we could do could come even marginally close to His beautiful sacrifice of love.

“Many waters cannot quench love, neither can floods drown it. If a man offered for love all the wealth of his house, he would be utterly despised” Song of Solomon 8:7

He invites us into His passion. Our passion to spread the fragrance of His Love comes from His own passion for the world. It was never our idea. He loved the world so much that the very blessed and most perfect Son of the Most High God gave everything, totally all of Himself and His precious relationship with His Father. I am discovering that it is our understanding, our revelation of Jesus and the cross which fuels how we live. The sacrifice of Jesus is inside of us: He gave us this free gift.

This free gift contains all the love, all the humility, all the passion that not just us, but the entire world needs. But to receive the gift for ourselves, we must unwrap it! By His grace, we must discover all of Him that we can. This delights the very heart of our God. We honour Him by saying He is worthy our time to discover. This is the greatest adventure one could ever imagine! It is to experience the most delightful, beautiful, love-filled being. We revel, we take great, ecstatic joy in the truth of such great love.

We become overwhelmed by such love as this. Love that would give itself away. And even then, this is not sacrificial love as between a human father who gives his life for his children. No, it is so much more than that. I had a revelation one night as I was falling asleep. It seems that there’s so much more space for Him when I’m lying down, doing nothing! He’s so desiring to talk to us throughout our days. We can be often too focused on earthly things. The heavenly things are so much better though, aren’t they! I’m not sure whether I was praying or not, but in that place He unveiled my heart to a tiny little more of His sacrifice. I am longing to gaze upon Him, longing after truth of His love. We must take hold of His Love for us, we must experience it, otherwise, is it truly our own? Have we made Him our own?

This life is hard on the earth; if we’re going to live for Him, we desperately need to eat and drink of Jesus. We crucially need to be fed with revelations of His love. I am so convicted of this. To know is to experience, not just to know in our minds. We cannot give away empty words to hungry souls; we must give away words which carry heart encounters, eternal life. Unless we experience and taste something for ourselves, how are we able to describe it? When it is our own, then we can share with someone else, and they can receive it too, because it is true. I completely admire all the works of evangelism, because they are done out of obedience to God, with the desire to see salvations. Yet sometimes, would you agree some of the acts are done from a place of spiritual barrenness? There is no life in emptiness. God shows me my own lifelessness, my own need for Him, so often in these circumstances! Indeed, Jesus can graciously work through these too. But, He gave so much more at the cross. There’s so much for us to feast upon and share with others.

We don’t need to look for our own words, our own abilities to spread His Love; the secret is within us, our relationship with Him. We, and I speak to myself, only need to encounter who Jesus truly is. As we journey into Him and unwrap His most glorious gift (whilst the angels look upon us in awe!), we are able to give away that which we possess. It is in feasting on Him that we come to be able to give away that which we have discovered. He is the bread of life: our revelations of Jesus are the most costly, treasured riches in the entire universe! I feel it is unjust keep this to ourselves. Let us not be doubtful about what it is we are increasingly carrying. The enemy may try to lie to us that it’s not important. But if the King Himself died for the cause, then indeed it is! Nevertheless, what we carry of Jesus becomes uncontainable, I find. How can we contain His face? He was given for the whole world, not just me! I want to be a faithful steward of His graces upon me. He is teaching me, step by step. And this is the main reason I am writing. I will leave you with my little story. Please excuse my words! Words feel clumsy when attempting to portray the Beautiful One…

…Oh Jesus, the Father’s eyes were upon You forever. I can see You as the perfect Son – the fully perfect One. Though, I can only see in part. Completely gracious from before time itself, You were in relationship, perfect relationship, with Your Father and Holy Spirit. You are the darling of Heaven. The whole of Heaven is about You, You are centre stage. There could not be a more innocent, pure, loving, joyful, fun, devoted, dependent Son. The level of intimacy is indescribable. The terrible and tragic thing is this: this perfect place of abiding love was broken. All of heaven looks on with overwhelming weeping: the pure One will go, He is going to the earth. He is going where dirty, disease ridden sin reigns: the playing field of the enemy. He will leave His throne, under which the earth resides. He is the Creator, who created the world in perfection. But, His creation disobeyed Him. He could have destroyed it all in a day, and He would be right to do so, because He deserves perfection. Yet, somehow His divine Wisdom has chosen humility. This is the mystery which, right from the Garden of Eden, the enemy thought was weakness. And now, Jesus, His blameless Son, is the manifestation of humble Love’s victory over death.  It is the upmost tragic act, which my words do little justice. Oh Jesus, please bless me with the words! The innocent, beautiful child, who dances in perfect relationship with the Father and Holy Spirit, He chose to give Himself away. The Father carried out this united will. The Father, our Father God, was in the position to commit His Son to death. What is this? I cannot grasp. I cannot fully receive. Oh I want to be able. My heart, my mind, it is so small.

Our cup is full to overflowing, it is full with the Love of Christ. In Him we have obtained an inheritance (Ephesians 1:11). Let us embrace Him, let us embrace Him with our whole heart. He is worthy!

Jesus: a painting by a little girl called Akiane. At four years old she began to have visions of Jesus, Heaven and creation, after which she drew what she saw. How incredible!
Jesus: a painting by a little girl called Akiane. At four years old she began to have visions of Jesus, Heaven and creation, after which she drew what she saw. How incredible!

Here are some scriptures for your reference, relating to things I ambled about above. I love the Bible so much; I would insert it wherever I can!

 “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation” Mark 16:15

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has no overcome it” John 1:5

“Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord [enthusiastically]” Romans 12:11

 “Delight yourself in the Lord” Psalm 37:4

“For My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink” John 6:55

“…the Trinity is our Maker and keeper, our eternal lover, joy and bliss – all through our Lord Jesus Christ” Julian of Norwich, a saint from the 14th century – someone I greatly admire. Her book, ‘Revelations of Divine Love’, is astounding.   

Love, Emeline

Shaken by unshakeable faith

Here’s a little something I thought I could start my blog with!

“we live by faith, not by sight”

2 Corinthians 5:7

I’ve found myself on a journey with Jesus into the unknown. He is taking me beyond normality, what I have been, seen or heard before. I am discovering a little more, every day, of what living by faith truly is. It is beyond my plans, my mind, my capability, my world… Jesus fills me with dreams and faith for things which do not make logical sense always. His ideas are not mine, nor are His ways. It is an exchange; He shows me His ways, and I give up my own, sometimes easily, sometimes not so! Dependence literally means dependence. It’s taken me a while to begin this realisation:

Dependence: the state of relying on or being controlled by someone/something else

It implies weakness, vulnerability, helplessness.  It’s similar to the image of a puppet hanging from strings. The old French conveys an act of hanging down off something. So, in this fashion, it is like being a puppet in the hands of God – total control by Him alone. Complete trust is at the heart of this. We can say we trust Him, but that isn’t really the case unless our day is founded on faith. This is what I am discovering, and I am only just beginning! Everything comes down to little actions. Our God is interested in even the smallest of things: there are just endless ways to walk with Him and bring Him delight. He’s interested in stretching our faith and dependence bit by bit, starting with the simplest things. That’s because, compared to Him, we are quite simple little beings really, aren’t we! We need to think and move like children, and then we have a much better perspective of our capacities and His!

Some of the greatest people I have met were in Pemba, Mozambique. Some may come from orphaned, impoverished, disadvantaged backgrounds…yet, are gliding on who Jesus is; they are learning to trust Him with their everything, dreams included. And, oh, can they dream! Doesn’t it make sense that when we catch greater glimpses of who Jesus is, we can begin to trust Him with even the wildest of dreams? Because, let’s get to the bottom of it: are they really our dreams anyway? If they’re His, then, provided we walk with Him, He is able to establish them!

Our lives are not determined by our past, our circumstances, or by what others say we can do. No, they are dependent on who HE says we are! It feels like a risky thing to step out into His words alone, leaving behind our own ideas. But it’s an adventure: learning more about the One who died for us, about the destiny He has created for us to live, and learning to give this to others.

Who knows just where He might lead us?!  -Mozambique, Africa
Who knows just where He might lead us?!
-Mozambique, Africa

I like to dwell on these incredible words : )

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the sign that the things not seen are true” Hebrews 11:1

 “Immediately Jesus reached out His hand and caught Him. ‘You of little faith’, he said, ‘why did you doubt?’” Mathew 14:31

“So that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power” 1 Corinthians 2:5

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves , it is the gift of God” Ephesians 2:8

“In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one” Ephesians 6:16

“The righteous will live by faith” Galatians 3:11

“I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father” John 14:12

“So faith comes through hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ” Romans 10:17

“I depend on God alone, I put my hope in Him” Psalm 62:5

“For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust” Psalm 103:14

“You turn things upside down! Shall the potter be regarded as the clay, that the thing made should say of its maker, ‘He did not make me’; or the thing formed say of Him who formed it, ‘He has no understanding?’” Isaiah 29:16

“Looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him, endured the cross…” Hebrews 12:2

 “But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one” 2 Thessalonians 3:3

“I stand silently to listen for the One I love, waiting as long as it takes for the Lord to rescue me. For God alone has become my Savior. He alone is my Safe Place, His wrap-around presence always protects me. For He is my Champion-Defender; there’s no risk of failure with God! So why would I let worry paralyze me, even when troubles multiply around me?” Psalm 62: 1-2

From various translations: if you search them online you’ll find them. The last one is taken from The Passion Translation, which I cannot recommend highly enough!

Love, Emeline